I'm Still Trying To Hold On!!!

The law of attraction states that whatever you focus on you will get. So what I am trying to manifest in my life right now is a massive amount of money!

So far I have had small degrees of success with this but I'm having problems just staying positive and holding on to my hope and faith.

I know that at times like these I am supposed to remember all the things that I am grateful for and to focus on the positive parts of my life of which there are many that I have to be grateful for.

Manifesting A Billion Dollars!

I have been doing some searching online trying to find advice and articles about manifesting a billion dollars. Yes you heard me right! I want to manifest a billion dollars and I want it to manifest now!

I really do need a miracle in my life right now and I just can't believe that the Universe, God wouldn't want me to have something that I really want.

I have read countless online articles and basically they generally said that you can manifest almost anything in your life as long as you believe and have faith in it. I was at a very interesting website full of comments about how when people "threw in the towel" what they wanted manifested!

So maybe I'm trying too hard, putting resistance in my way and I know that I'm supposed to keep my vibrations up and continue to feel the feelings of having it now. What it looks like is that I seem to be the one standing in my own way.

My New Year's Resolution(s)?

Actually I didn't think about making any New Year's Resolutions because I already have some set goals of my own in mind!

But you know since this is the first new day of the year it seems like a very good time to make a list of New Year Resolutions for myself.

First and foremost I want to be financially secure! I have already created my own mission statement and my mission is to be a millionaire! Not only will I reach this goal BEFORE the end of this year, I'm going to reach this goal as soon as possible!

I believe my financial goal is the one that I will be working on and concentrating and focusing on the most because that is one of the main goals that I want to achieve so that I will be financially secure.

I am already grateful to be earning money with the Google Adsense program and I am also grateful that I am able to work from home.

I am using the law of attraction more and more into my life so that I can attract all the money that I want into my life. I even read online that it is possible to attract a billion dollars into one's life if they know how to do it correctly.

So there you have it. My New Year's Resolution for 2010 is to become a millionaire as soon as possible!

I Am SO Mad I Could Spit!

I won't go into detail but I was expecting some money from somewhere and I haven't even received it yet! I put my request in last month and I STILL haven't received it yet! Apparently there seems to be a problem with processing the money BUT yet and still I see that the site is announcing their newest blog post but they haven't said anything about the progress of the processing problem!. This makes me so mad! and frustrated!

Very strong emotions! And I firmly believe that one can worry so much that it can actually make one's self ill!

I have emailed this site numerously and have gotten some replies back - but none of those replies has resulted in me getting my money yet! And what makes it hurt even more is that they have been helping other members financially - even those that have become members after me!

I just do not believe that this is fair in the least and I continue to try and find out why it is taking so long for me to receive my money! But it seems like the harder I try, the more frustrated I get and the less results I get! I think that it is horrible to be holding someone's money and not release it to them!

This is something that I just HAD to vent about! I read online about people having problems both financially and spiritually and when I reply to them I tell them to not give up hope and to keep trying and to keep on keeping on - and this is now the advice that I have to follow myself!

I'm still not going to give up though but I sorely needed to vent my anger and frustration somewhere! I do feel a little bit better now!

Do What You Love...................

I found another inspiring article about doing what you love to do!

This is something that I firmly believe myself!

Although it is hard and sometimes frustrating, I realize that I have to continue to go on! Keep the faith. Never give up!

I love working on my computer but it can be frustrating at times because I haven't manifested the kind of wealth that I want - YET - but I haven't given up and I continue to do what I love - which is working on the computer!

I have managed to make some money online using Google's Adsense program and it is something that I firmly suggest to others if you want to be able to make money online. If you want to know more about Google's Adsense program, just click here.

So I am continuing to do what I love. I am continuing to keep the faith and I will continue to not give up!

Below is the link to the article:

Doing What You Love.....

I'm Trying To Keep My Hopes Up!

I'm trying to keep my spirits and my hopes up high! You know what they say "you may be down but you're not out!"

There are a lot of things that I have that I should be and am grateful for! You never know how good you have it until you start watching the news and seeing a story on someone who is more worse off than you! People losing their homes to fires or foreclosures and even those who have lost their lives!

I was able to pay my internet access for another month, my utilities are still on (as you can tell from me typing this blog entry) and I'm waiting word for a government grant to help pay with some of my heating bill! As a matter of fact my heating bill got a huge portion of it taken out because of some "adjustment" that my heating company had made and since this is a very cold winter - I can use all the help that I can get!

I have food in my refridgerator and I have my Adsense income that is helping me!

I'm also reading a book about self-improvement and its helping me when I don't have all those negative thoughts whirling around in my head! Basically the book is saying that we are all here for a purpose. Everyone has unique talents and abilities that they can contribute to the world and this is something that I absolutely believe to be true!

I love working on the computer and I love being able to work from home and I have come to agree that this is my passion!

I haven't completed my income taxes yet but I know that it has to be done. Since I am self-employed and work from home, I won't be getting a refund though because I have to pay a self-employment tax - but the paperwork still needs to be done - but on the bright side I still have some time before it is due.

I keep trying to remind myself of my mission statement which is to have a million dollars in the bank so that I can live off the interest so that I can pursue what it is that I love to do which is working on my computer.

I hope that this blog will help serve as an inspiration to those who are feeling depressed, frustrated and worthless. We may be down but we are not out yet! It ain't over yet!

Please Remember To Celebrate Thanksgiving This Year

I have so many things to be thankful and grateful for! I had come to realize this when I was reading posts from others about what they were going to have for Thanksgiving dinner. A lot of people said that they were going to have noodles (that's all that they have and /or could afford) and / or something other than turkey.

Unfortunately I VOW to have a turkey this year! At the very best I will have spent the amount of money necessary to get a free turkey at my local supermarket and at the very worse I'll just buy a turkey - hopefully for around $10! But I am adamant about this though! One of the greatest pleasures that I have on Thanksgiving is preparing the turkey as I watch my local Thanksgiving parade on TV.

Instead of being jealous, I am very happy for him!

I have a brother who is a veteran! He gets more money per month than I do! Since he has a number of disabilities he also gets a disability check!

I used to be jealous of that because he was getting more money than I was per month and I was working at the time!

Like I mentioned before, he has had some serious health issues that he has to deal with!

I'm actually happen that he has managed to live a fairly good life. For a long time he was a drug user!

But now he has settled down - his health actually has made it necessary for him to slow down and take it easy. He is starting to eat more healthy foods now and he is also starting to get into religion!

I know that some people may put the Veteran's Administration down but they have helped my brother to be able to live a better life!

I know that there is a lot of paperwork and red tape involved when one is trying to get benefits from the government but it is well worth it and if you are entitled to these government benefits then you should definitely apply for them!

My Mission Statement!

I got this idea from Bishop TD Jakes! He said that people go through their lives without having a mission or a purpose. I have always wanted to be finacially wealthy but I never thought of putting or writing it down as my mission. But I have done that now!

It is my mission to have at least $1 Million Dollars in my bank account and I would be living off the interest!

Achieving this goal will allow me to continue to do the work that I love which is working on the computer!